my goal is to have no style or fashion sense

My goal is to have no style or fashion. I want to dress according to how I feel at that moment.

And I am not saying that to sound deep or different. 

Lately, I’ve been feeling tired of all the rules,  the labels, the categories, the aesthetics, like everything has to be named, matched, and make sense before you can even put it on your body. At some point, getting dressed stopped feeling simple. Now, it could be from the bully days of my childhood, mixed with the new day doom scrolling on how to dress from social media. No matter my reason or lack thereof. I am over, riding the hamster wheel of what’s in and what’s out. I only want o put one wear what feels good in that moment.

And I want it to feel like me again.

I want to wake up, look at what I have, and just wear what I like. The things that make me smile. The pieces that feel good on me, even if they don’t “go together” or fit into some kind of style box. 

Because as I’m getting older,enjoying what I wear feels like a pleasure now.  

The other day I was out window shopping, not really looking for anything, just browsing and I saw these blue, tilted-toe boots. They weren’t something I would normally wear. Honestly, they didn’t even fit into what I would call my “everyday” style. 

But I liked them. And I can not explain why because it’s not something I would usually pick up. Hold tight I will show them in my next post. #theylooksofunny :)

And for a second, I caught myself doing that thing we all do: trying to figure out if they made sense, if they fit, if they were “me.” #girlgetoverit 

Then I thought: when did I start needing all of that just to like a pair of boots?

I don’t know why, at this big ol’ age, I’m still questioning my style or trying to figure out what I should or shouldn’t wear. That’s so 2012:)

And to be clear, I’m not against style. I’m not against dressing fashionable 24/7. 

I think I’m just in a place where I’m trying to find me again, my style, in my own way. 

Honestly,I like to show up as the creative, artist, bag maker that I am. That part of me has always been there but, intwined with my laid back style. But I also know some of the things I like can come off as weird, ugly, or just plain odd to other people.

And on real talk, that’s not new. I have learned over the years everyone is not going to like everybody’s style. If I am being honest with myself and this post I am about to publish.

Ever since I was a kid, mixing and matching was my thing. Money was tight back then, so I had to get creative by reworking what I had, putting pieces together in ways that didn’t “make sense” to anybody but myself. Back in my day , it wasn’t alot of creative clothing to wear so I  had to make do with what I had. 

And for some reason I still love taking a button and adding it to another jacket or cutting denim to create a unique one-of-a kind handbag.

I still love mixing old with new, janky fabrics with something a little more put together. Now, that’s style when it feels good to me. And that’s how it should be. Getting dressed is not for the person watching and passing judgement. It’s for you as the person wearing  the item to feel good and people watching is just extra. 

So when I say I want no style, no fashion what I really mean is this:

I’m wearing what I want even what’s in season, out of season, on trend, off trend: none of that matters the way it used to. I’m not trying to blend in or fit into anything.

I’m dressing on feeling now. And yeah that’s the vibe I’m in.

These days, getting dressed feels less like putting together an outfit and more like checking in with myself.  Girl, some days it’s simple. Some days it doesn’t make sense to anybody but me.

And I’m okay with that. Oh, honey I must admit it’s a journey.

Because the truth is: I’m not trying to arrive at some final version of “my style” anymore. I’m letting it move in new directions. I’m letting my style change in new seasons , even as I age. I’m letting it be whatever it needs to be for me that day. 

This is where I am with it. #stylefreedom

If this resonates with you in any kind of way, I’d love to hear your thoughts.

Until next time embrace your style, and wear what the FUNK you want.

Tangie Bell